Can you FEEL the magic?

I can't believe the turn my life has taken. The changes are subtle, but the toll they have taken is astounding to me each and every day.
Due to those pesky double X-chromosomes, my brain has been working overtime lately trying to dissect what I am feeling toward a certain someone that I happen to be familiar with. Part of me wants to embrace those warm fuzzy insects fluttering inside of my abdominal region, while another part of me wants to push him as far away from my mind as possible. I honestly do not believe that it is healthy to dwell on matters of the heart when there are so many factors preventing two people from being together. Thinking about it just gives me a headache and makes me sad, so for now, I think it's best to just not deal with it at all.
It's harder than I once believed to be friends with someone that I care about. And this doesn't feel the usual "fuck and run" type of thing anymore. I genuinely care about his well-being and the things he is interested in. I want to hear about the things he does, and I want to know his opinions on serious topics.
We are particularly good at being together and not even having to talk to each other. Just being in the same room is enough. The sex being awesome definitely helps, but it's not the first thing I like about him. He has so many profound things to say, and there is still so much that I can/want to learn from him.

Oh for the love of god and all that is holy. I just need to stop talking.

/sigh.